I know mate. But it has been a very difficult decision to take. So let me it get it straight to the point why it's been dead.
- First of all, all that $h!t-drama about BaseQ. It's been 2 complete months that BaseQ has been freely bashed, that was the clan itself, the servers, the players/ex-players or even to myself (how could it even happen?!). By being someone being mainly on DooM to help bringing back competitions, by creating quality servers, that's honestly an insult
I won't add more details on it, but that's not the way to do it when you need to criticize something. There's a thread here for the clan, and another one exclusively for the servers, so if you have suggestions or problems, don't speak behind my back like a coward, and post a constructive message instead. That'd be a little more... Grateful for the work and money I'm spending for the community.
- Speaking of it: money is the second problem for stopping this
. It has been 3 months I'm trying to look for a job suited to my needs (with no success even if I'm qualified enough to be an IT technician), and the money I'm paying for the servers is from the 600€ I'm left with my bank account. So, minus the transport fees I'll need if I get a job, and bills, I won't have enough to pay the servers. And as I've no credit card still, I'll have to get ~45€ (~$60) on Paypal in less than 4 days to have enough money to pay them this month. Yep, 2 servers, 2 different goals to prioritize servers, and to reduce bandwidth problems.
People enjoy our servers after all (not only on DooM, let's say it straight), and are even thanking me, even for the help I'm providing for theirs. But what would happen once they'll be stopped? People are usually coming on BaseQ servers because of their stability and its priorities to competition, and as we're constantly hearing suggestions from players.
So, even if BaseQ as a clan is dead, I honestly don't want to leave my servers too
; since they've been here for more than 2 years now, that people like them overall, and that I've got very good moments helping the communities too. But I just can't do this alone
The last reason is because of me. Since Fsn76 left BaseQ to create HN (and I accepted that, don't get me wrong), I felt internally like if I was let down ([FR] Le TS devenu instantanément deserté par exemple suite à un départ, reconnais que ca blesse sérieusement la motivation à continuer [/FR]). Even after a lot of discussion with other BaseQ members, we haven't found a correct solution to "continue" BaseQ effectively at least on DooM, other than with JCD, Oxyde, Dislogical and I: for availability reasons for instance, or they didn't want new non-fr members, problems like that.
Additionally, we had problems with our CSGO team (cheating reasons: 3 V.A.C banned, cool.). I was lost, and wasn't able to do anything, to the point I was depressed, and accumulated IRL problems over IVL problems. We all have up and downs after all, and I needed to hide it as much as I could to avoid problems.
TO THE POINT of that event Nevanos wanted to do: fun events with a few people out there. I was part of the event, as a player, and by making them servers. And that'd be polite that if they're doing an event or something, they could -at least- warn me, even if I'm not there.
If I say that, it's because of this reason: I recently saw JCD having -CE- before his name, and not his regular clantag. I thought first that it was a clan (turns out it was years before, but it was part of their event as a "private joke", ahah.), and had the feeling that he betrayed me; hence the fact I was extremely angry at him, AND to Nevanos afterwards. That was too much for me, and needed to burst out my rage, but unfortunately... Not on the right person. Because of that, JCD left [BaseQ] in favour of HN. I preferred to stop definitively the adventure at this point. (and even worse, but it's because of a mis-understanding)
So now, you all know everything. I'll be still there to help about the server management, development on source ports, and I'm apologizing to people here while we're at it: JCD, Nevanos, Fsn76 (surtout toi ma coche
), Oxyde, and especially Dislogical for all the problems I've unwillingly given to you. I'm so weak and so sorry...
EDIT: And additonnally that I stop competition for a long while.
C'etait Ch0wW, Out.